wahaha...hyper todau wheee....

yesterday was fun woke up like 11+ and met up wid ching... then makan and cafe and went for cg at lorraine's house haha... SNOWP IS SO CUTE.... she so shy...and scared haha....we played pass the message to cool haha... ended up all so weird wat salt pepper sugar... haha...then after tt came home didnt go for service was unable to go haiz....then after tt went out wif my family and eat duck rice!! costed us 30.40!!

today woke up at 8+ then preapared and went for service... service was kkz... but almost like fell asleep.. dunno why haiz... then stayed back for rev.mike connell's ministry... first time seeing the ministry... many people cried... many screamed...many vomited... many manifeisted... i was one of them being slained... just had to cried out all the past tt hv been bothering mi.... betrayal.. hatred... backstabbing... disappointments... unhappiness... fear.... realli juz had to let it all out... i cried and juz fell and for a while...i went blank... it dun feel good at all i tell you... feels like ya world is in total darkness everything was dark... but after tt i opened my eyes everything was normal... felt much better...much relieved... i really thnx God for being wid mi all the time:)

comin up events... city harvest 17th anniversary[aug 6,indoor stadium,11am-2pm]
festival of praise[aug 4-6,indoor stadium]


kkz....gtg peeps....wheee.....cya!

haiz...veri long nvr blog le... anyway i juz changed my blogskin! hehe

tis few days dunno why i juz feel like breakin down but i juz dunno why tears dun flow through my eyes... maybe i am juz cold blooded... haiz....been tinkin a lot tis few days... but juz cant get the answer i really wan.........

first.... i hv a feeling tt the clique is drifting a part... we are not tokin like we used to... its really no use... i mean mr quek why did you hv to be saddistic and seperate all of us.... its like later we get out of sec sch no frenz ah all of us come find you lorz...haha... anyway i miss the old seatin arrangement... i dun really like the exsistin one lorz.. the four of us so apart from one another.. haiz... cant stand it!

second... me and my dad hardly tok... coz he doesnt wan to tok to mi.. and i dunno wat to tok to him....... its like I CANT STAND TIS LIFE! wats wid comin home everyday and not tokin... tis family has already no meaning for mi... coming back home juz a place to sleep... does not really matter to mi... now in my life i onli hv GOD, my bros and sis in christ where they really care a lot for mi... one thing tt i will nvr regret to do is to join church and be part of N105.... my frenz... esp sophia... two gals who juz wants to break down are supporting each other no matter wat storm comes to us....

third.....i feel really bad... i juz read my fren's blog and i felt like crying with her... how can i be so foolish and dunno wats happening to her... how can i not noe! i feel so useless.. all tt brave front she puts up... i really wan to let her noe tt there are still many people out there who cares for her... cry it all out bahx... you will feel better de... and i will be ya listening ear anytime...

haiz... nowadays so many ppl around mi + mi is down.... we juz dunnno wat to do... who will help us??

ytd was a good and bad day for mi!!!

started in the afternoon went for cg hehe so fun we got to play who stole the cookie from the cookie jar haha in the end it was morgan and jiayuan!!! haha then after had praise and worship and then mi and ching ''concert'' haha both of us were like shivering!! haha but was kkz la.. then after tt went for service... first i dropped my bible then my note then my pen then the glowstick ahhhh!! i was so clumsy!! hehe.. then after tt we went for fellowship at katong haha had laksa so nice worx but the uncle's attitude is haiz nvm.. haha... wat made mi sad was when i came home my dad was like asked mi...

dad:where did you go?
me:church...
dad:wat church??
me:city harvest
dad:christian one ah
me:yea..
dad:i told you rite then i am totally against you to go christian church.
me:but why ain't catholic and christian the same just that catholic pray through mother mary to God
dad:no they wan money all they tok is abt money
me: no i dun tink so...
dad:then you be christian is as good as not hving your father and mother cannot hold joss stick cannot eat tis
eat tat...
me:no wat we can hold the joss sticks but just prefably not and then we can eat anything we want wat...
dad: ahya you will find out later la
[[me half heart broken... coz wat does he mean by as good as not hvin father and mother you mean they will disown me if i tell them tt i am a christian or those who are christians are as good as not hving parents]] tt hurt mi alot la... haiz why dun they just understand it is abt hving a relationship wid God not abt individual religion... just wanna CRY!!!!my mother herself is a catholic she oso dun understand, guess tt it will take a long time for my dad to accpet my choice to become a christian... or maybe they juz tink i am still too young to make my own decision.... i realli dunno super confused now!!! haiz...

kkz gtg...bb...tc...ppl!!! wheee....

hahaha super long nvr update my blog le haha... haiz dunno wat to update have been sick for the past few days wid fever flu and cough haiz...[[to zz my blog is alive again!!]]whee!!! rejoice! haha